I gotta…

I’ve got to beg your pardon but I’m putting this weeks Revelation post on hold until next week.  I have some things I need to figure out.

Why can’t I get myself to church? I NEED to find a church yet when it comes time to try one my wife and I found, I balk.  I find some sort of excuse to not go.  I don’t feel well, my arthritis is acting up, I have stuff I need to do….

Why can’t I be more like Daniel? He put everything to God. Kidnapped, taken to a Pagan Empire (Babylon), and trained to be a Babylonian, yet he resisted and did everything in the name of God.  Every single decision was based on whether it would be what God wanted or not. So simple for a young man that was somewhere between 13 and 19 when he was taken from Jerusalem.

See, I have a problem.  A big problem for me. According to my aging Mother, I was never baptized. Now I know that when you are born again you need to be re-baptized but I wonder if never having had it done as an infant has been a part of the troubles in my life. Please understand, I don’t blame my parents for this.  We were never a very religious family growing up, but at two weeks shy of 44 I want to be. I want to be righteous in the eyes of God.  I want to know that I’ll be taken in the Rapture only to return with Jesus at the Battle of Armageddon.

I guess I don’t know what I need to do so that I can push through and get to church. To find a group of people I can share my joy in the Lord with.


One thought on “I gotta…

  1. I love how open and honest you are. Since I’m married to someone who works in a church, I feel like my perspective is so narrow. Hearing a real voice and real thoughts of faith are what make my challenge and think more critically about my own. I tend to be in such a bubble. Thank you for sharing and keeping it real. ❤️


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